Mommy Roller Coaster

This mommy thing is not for the sissy...  I'm having one of those 'I could be so much better at this mommy thing' day (week/month...)  My brain is still processing all this and trying to figure it out.  It mostly has to do with parenting Autumn - I'm too hard on her and expect too much, yell too much, am not patient/creative/kind/gentle enough with her.  I feel like I've dug a hole in how we communicate that we need to dig out of.  Lord help me, teach me!  Redeem the mistakes, guide me to do better - to be a better person and mommy.