Sisters!

Today we had our 20 week ultrasound.  About 10 weeks ago I told Aaron he could decide if we would try to find out if we were having a boy or a girl.  He's been on the fence since then.  I asked him today at about 2 (our appointment was at 3:45) if he had decided.  He replied that he decided a couple of days ago, but was waiting to tell me until we got to the appointment.  We arrived, he took Autumn to the potty and they called me in.  I got on the exam table and when he and Autumn came in and I asked, "so are we finding out or waiting?"   He decided we should try to find out.  The ultrasound went great, the tech was really nice and pointed everything out as she went - heart, kidneys, brain, face....  It was so fun! She thinks the baby is on the smaller size - which would be awesome again!  Come on 6 pounder!! She didn't really get a picture of the evidence, but she was very certain that what she was seeing was all girl.  Hopefully she is right, or we will be really surprised on D-Day!!! We got to see her sucking her fingers! The tech got a couple of nice 4D pictures - which was difficult as baby girl was tucked head down resting on the side of the uterus.

Funny, both Aaron and I were surprised! I've been thinking boy because this pregnancy has just been different.  Aaron's now thinking that maybe we will hold out on any permanent birth control - as it would be fun to try for a boy!  Autumn was not surprised at all, she's been telling us we were going to have a girl for weeks!! "A girl named Abby!"  We still need to discuss the names - we are not sold on Abby, but not opposed to it either.  Kind of a cute story, having your sister name you at 16 weeks in utero!


It is so different knowing what we are having!  We waited until birth with Autumn and that was great. But it is really fun to know early as well! To dream of Autumn playing babies with her, trying on dresses and make-up together as teens, giggling and being girl silly together!!!  It will be so much fun to watch them grow into women together!  We'll be able to plan for girl names, get Autumn's clothes out for her and prepare for another sweet little girl!!!  We even got a cute little Hawaii onesy tonight to celebrate!

20 weeks

Crazy - we are 1/2 way there!!!  Only 20 more weeks until your due date little one!  We saw the mid-wife yesterday and everything looks perfect!  Your heart beat was healthy and my blood pressure and size is just right.  I'm starting to feel your little kicks and punches every couple of hours now, which I love!  I love that reassurance that you are moving around and growing in there!  While at the clinic we got everything lined up for our move. All the records will be sent to Glenwood after our ultrasound on Friday and I got the information I would need if any emergency happened while we travel for the next 3 weeks. At the ultrasound on Friday they will take a look at your whole body, making sure that everything looks healthy - your heart, kidneys, spinal cord and brain!  We pray that you have not a blemish and everything is working as it should!  It is so fun to be able to see you, so Friday is a treat - it will be the most time we spend actually seeing you until you are born and we get to hold you!   Daddy still hasn't decided if we will ask to find out if you are a boy or a girl yet!  I'll be happy either way - it will be a wonderful surprise now or later!  Your sister Autumn is convinced you are a girl and has even named you Abby!  It is super cute, she loves to cuddle up to my belly and try to feel you when you are kicking!  She asks to watch videos of babies your size on the computer so she can see what you would look like.  She is very excited to get to help with changing, feeding and caring for you!!   Love you little peanut!!

How far along: 20 Weeks

Size of Baby: about 10 inches head to toe and 10 1/2 ounces

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 8 lbs - right on track to gain 25-30 - hoping!

Maternity Clothes: Kind of. Got rid of the tight jeans, but the loose ones fit well.  Wore a maternity top today because it was cute and makes me look pregnant - not because it was necessary (-:

Gender: Ultrasound is Friday - maybe Aaron will decide before then!

Movement: I'm now feeling little kicks every 1-2 hours and loving it!

Sleep: Still doing well and not needing quite as much of it.  Getting up 1-2 times to use the bathroom.

Symptoms:  About the same as 16 weeks, but feel like the acne is a bit better and the chi chi growth spurt is over. 

Best Moment This Week:  Having Aaron and Autumn feel kicks!

What I'm Most Looking Forward To: Newborn cuddles and watching Autumn be a sister

Gossip

Yesterday I worked up north and listened to a sermon on the radio on the way there.  It was a really great one on gossip and how it hurts everyone involved.  It was certainly convicting, it is so easy to talk about how someone drives you nuts or how you would have done things differently...  

So the essence of the message, was that if what you are saying brings poor lighting on another, don't say it (and same for listening, which is even harder).  If you aren't willing to take your robe off and approach the person humbly (like Jesus did his disciples at the last supper) and confront them on real sin, then you should cover them in love and keep your mouth shut (like Abraham's sons did when his other son went telling everyone he was naked and drunk).  So talking to others about other is really never an option - you either go to them or keep quiet.   When you talk to others you taint them in how they act around the other person and damage your own relationships because people know you talk to others about other peoples problems - why would they confide in you?  Gossip really isn't a grey area - if you are talking negatively about another - judging, sharing about their sins, just making conversation about others problems - then stop.

I've found this to be especially convicting at work - there are some teachers that are really hard to get along with, but that I feel talking to them will only worsen the situation.  It is so easy for us being treated poorly to complain or vent about it to each other.  Not okay, but so hard to walk away from or even not start.   Sigh.... my sinful nature has to be beaten down.  Of course this isn't the only gossip I've taken part in....   help me Lord to be gracious and cover's others sins with love if I haven't been called to confront someone about a situation or problem.  Help me to be gracious in asking others to stop if they start telling me something that I shouldn't know. Help me to walk boldly in confronting situations that you want me to be part of the healing/sharpening process.   May others be able confide in me knowing I have tight lips and a gracious heart. May I take these concerns and irritations to you only and not others.  Create in me a clean heart and give me clean lips oh Lord!

Late Night Chat

Yesterday we spent the afternoon and evening at Autumn's buddy's birthday party - she didn't nap and fell asleep at 6:45 on the way home.  We knew it would be interesting how this played out, as she frequently wakes for good after 9 hours.  At 1:15 she came in to ask for food as she was hungry and she had a "tummy head ache."  I set her up with a banana, cottage cheese and some milk.  She was supper chatty and most of what I remember was her remembering what Nana and Papa's was like.  She asked if they had a little table and if she ate all her food there?  There is a little table and she used to eat snacks and some meals there.  Then she asked who else is there.  I told her Aunt Laurale comes on Monday's and Thursday's and she said, "and Mick."  I said that we see Mick at the hospital and she asked, "where Nana takes care of babies?"  Yes.  "And they have gramcrackers there and they let me have them." Yes that is true too. (-:  She has started using the phrase, "and you know what mama?"  I think I also say it frequently, but it is so cute and usually followed by adorable two year old knowledge? Things like - Shyshy has curly hair, it's going to be my birthday, Calvin is a baby....   LOVE IT!!!!  Oh and when snack time was over she did some cuddling and slept until 8am!   So thankful - as we were still exausted due to more awake time from calling the cops on the new screaming scary neighbors )-:  That is the topic for another post, so very sad and yet so very happy they may move out even before we do.  It's been a small dent in our condo living and reinforces the desire to not live this close to so many people again.   Done, done, done with drifting cigerette smoke, pot smoke and screaming....sigh....

2 weeks

In two weeks we hop on a plane and fly away from Kona airport.  Aaron and I keep mentioning how crazy this is!  The last 10 months has absolutely flown by!  We are trying to disrupt Autumn's life as little as possible, so we aren't really packing up the house until the last minute.  We'll sell the big stuff and are getting a little storage for all our clothes, kitchen stuff... and hoping there is enough room in the storage for our queen bed too.  We're selling the Civic and some friends are keeping the Accord for us.  I've already forwarded the mail and so other than packing and cleaning we are pretty much ready.

We've spent lots of time talking about our upcoming travels and move with Autumn in hopes that it eases the transition.  She asks a lot of questions about it and seems to be excited about me being done working and seeing family.  Everyday when I pick her up she asks, "Are you done working?"  I explain that I'm done for the day, but still have a couple of weeks left before I don't have to go anymore. Figuring out how much to tell her when her concept of time is difficult is not easy.  We've error on the side of telling her a lot and hoping that it makes leaving a little easier.  She has a lot to look forward to - Maui and friends, family in Maryland, all the family in Colorado, lots of new toys in her new room at Nana and Papa's and a new baby on the way!

We've been so blessed this year with friends and fun.   It has been a very different experience than when we lived here just the two of us, but it has been a nice pace of family life.  Not too busy, but still plenty of beach days, swimming and fun outings!  We will miss many people and things about Kona for the next few months, but we are excited to see family, friends, enjoy the mountains in the summer and fall and maybe even a tiny bit of eagerness to play in the snow again!

A Mother's Love

There are times when only a mother's love
Can understand our tears,
Can soothe our disappoints
And calm all of our fears.

There are times when only a mother's love
Can share the joy we feel
When something we've dreamed about
Quite suddenly is real.

There are times when only a mother's faith
Can help us on life's way
And inspire in us the confidence
We need from day to day.

For a mother's heart and a mother's faith
And a mother's steadfast love
Were fashioned by the angels
And sent from God above.
--Author Unknown



So blessed with an amazing mother and so blessed to be a mother!!!   These are certainly two of God's greatest gifts in my life!!!

A year ago and some change

I found a USB drive on the floor next to Aaron's desk last night and wondered what was on it.  I'd totally forgotten that Todd had prepared us USB's with the pictures others had taken on the trip.  I had pulled some of them when I did my lengthy journal entry and then totally forgot about the rest.  Here are some of my favorites after looking through them again!!  Such fond memories from a trip of a life time!!!!

Potty Training

Well this whole potty training thing hasn't quite been what I thought it would be.  Autumn started being interested in the potty forever ago and even went poop in the toilet at 18 months.  I thought she'd be an early potty trainer and so around her 2nd birthday we tried undies with reminders and this did not go well. We put them away as it was apparent she wasn't ready.  Later she'd seem ready and we tried stickers and she'd pee, get a sticker and then insist on sitting on the toilet until she could make more pee to earn another sticker.  That was the end of that.   In the last month there are a couple of girls at daycare that wear under ware and Autumn so badly wants to wear them too, but she didn't want to use the toilet at their house.  We told her that if she keeps a pull up dry all day that she can practice with under ware again.  At home in the evenings we've been trying some timed toileting with some success.   On Friday she decided she was ready to use the potty all day at daycare and stayed dry in her pull up all day going every 20-30 minutes.  Over the weekend it wasn't perfect, but she did a pretty good job using the toilet.  Monday she stayed dry in undies (which she has named vividies) all day with just one poop accident and spacing her pees out to every 45 minutes.  So far today she has taken herself with out a pee accident and says she isn't ready when I ask. She takes her backpack that she packed with vividies into the bathroom and changes into a different pair each time she goes. She still didn't make it for her poop, but not bad.  I think we'll be using a lot fewer diapers!!!!!!!!!

Plunger laughs

Last night Autumn was brushing her teeth and looked down at the plunger and declared, "It's a dang it... hahaha!"  I have no recollection of when that word was used or when it was use with the plunger - but somehow the connection was made and she thinks it is absolutely  hilarious.   We played it cool, said it is called a plunger and that it is not nice to say dang it.  But over and over about 8 times she's giggle, "it's a dang it... hahaha."  Dear oh dear.....   I've never seen her think something she has said was soooooooo funny!  

Cont...   on Saturday in a restaurant bathroom Autumn saw the plunger and said "Hey mom they have a dang it!"

16 Weeks

Time is a flying!  The last four weeks flown by and I am now very very happy to be into the 2nd trimester.  I have more energy and don't feel nauseated all day - got to love that!!!!  Today I had my 16 week visit and everything looks good! Baby's heartbeat was a healthy 145 bpm.  I was eager to hear it, as I've had 2 bouts of food poisoning in the last 10 days.  Talk about bad luck - and it wasn't even high risk foods!  Dried fruit and coconut flesh that shouldn't have gone bad as fast as it did.  Oh well....   Hoping it is the end of that for the rest of the pregnancy!  I still haven't gotten a side picture yet - I'm wider, but certainly don't look pregnant to the unknowing eye.  I'm hoping to get a special sarong tomorrow to use as a backdrop and start doing side shots soon - otherwise this kiddo is going to wonder why Autumn's pregnancy got all the pictures and theirs has so few!

Here are a few stat questions I stole from Christine's blog:
  
How far along: 16 Weeks and 1 day.

Size of Baby: about 4 1/2 inches and 3 1/2 ounces

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Gained 5 since December and still weigh 3 pounds less than my pre-pregnancy weight with Autumn.  Seems strange, all I can figure is that I've lost muscle - and I certainly can't attribute anything to me being super healthy lately - other than surfing I haven't exercised and I eat whatever I want.  I hate that I crave sugar even more when I'm pregnant and I haven't been terrific at telling myself no.

Maternity Clothes: Not yet. My tight jeans are a bit uncomfortable, but otherwise everything fits fine.

Gender: I'm letting Aaron decide if we will try to find out at our diagnostic ultrasound - he is still deciding and I'm not counting on him making up his mind until we walk through door to the machine.

Movement: I occasionally feel like I can feel the baby jump like in the 12 week ultrasound, but then I think oh, maybe that was just gas. When I was sleeping one night Aaron said he was holding my belly and praying for the baby and felt a jump.

Sleep: Doing pretty well. We are all going to be fairly early, but I've been able to stay up a little longer some nights.  I do get up and pee 1-3 times each night though. Luckily I sleep hard and it takes me no time at all to start dreaming again!

Symptoms:  Sore, itchy and growing chi chis, growing belly, gas, acne...  oh the fun stuff!

Best Moment This Week:  Hearing the baby's heartbeat

What I'm Most Looking Forward To: Newborn cuddles and watching Autumn be a sister

Life plans

I've been meaning to write a post about our plans.  We've spent months praying and pondering over our next move in life.  My desires have been to make Hawaii home since we came back last March.  We landed in Maui after a cold winter and I looked at Aaron and said in a joking but honest voice, "Tell me again why we don't live here?"  I'm not tied to the move and know I would be happy where ever God wants us - but deciphering that is so difficult.  In about February we both started to tell other people that we planned to move back to Hawaii more permanently after the 2012 holidays.  It seemed to fit and the more we said it, the more it sounded right. We will go back to Colorado, spend time with family, have our second child, save money and then try to return to Kona in February of 2013 to buy a place to live here.  God still has to work out some of the details and can always change our course, but that is where we are headed for the time being.  Oddly this place feels more like home than anywhere we've ever lived - hard to explain, but we believe this is where God wants us to raise our family and be his Light.  

Spunky

Autumn - your spunkiness is so much fun!  This last month has been full of lots of fun memories!  You insisted on going for a surf board paddle with daddy at Kahaluu to look for dolphins and even told me the other day "I want a dolphin for my birthday."  I ask if you wanted a real or pretend one and you replied, "well I don't want the pretend kind!"  We took a family kayak trip out in Kailua Bay and have had many many picnic parties as you call them with our friends at the beach.  You've taken more of an interest in doing crafty things so we've made pictures with construction paper, painted on special paper, learn how to make snakes and things with play-doh and finger painted.  You really like using the stick glue - sometimes successfully and sometimes not so much!  You still love to climb anything you can - this is fun but I'm fairly certain it will lead to trouble sometime soon.  On Easter I caught you climbing up a huge rock wall.  Lately you have taken to the Ipad that I get to use from work and can spend a lot of time hoping around doing puzzles and starting netflix shows that you stop so you can navigate around the slide bars.  You're going to miss it when we have to return it and we've already started preparing you for the reality that we will be giving it back soon. You enjoy swimming at the pool and ocean, you have no problem getting you head in and trying to kick and paddle.  You also enjoy your ring and will kick to swim around in it.

You've really enjoyed our new neighbors and ask about them all the time.  What they are doing and if you can go over to see them.  We have gotten to do a couple of dinners, beach and swim dates and evening play sessions with balls and bubbles with them and you always have fun! They have a 5 year old boy, 3 year old girl, 2 year old girl and a baby on the way like us! 

You continue to blow us away with what you can say!  Lately as we drive home at the end of the day you label the bank, gas station, Kona Boys and the shops we went to with Nana.  As we drove by the bank on Friday you said, "there's the bank." I replied "yes and we probably should have stopped to get cash."  You responded, "I don't like cash. I like cake and fruit!"  This same night on the way to town you talked to Nana and Papa the whole way into town.  You asked Papa how many baths they had, told him that we do not live in Colorado, that when you slip in the bathroom you get your clothes wet (which you have done once before bath) and that you know to take your clothes off before bath. You talked and talked and talked - it was so cute!  Today with daddy you were playing with play-doh and daddy suggested making an outrigger and you decided that it needed a mommy, daddy, baby and they needed paddles and life jackets! Such a smart girl!

You have also have a very cute relationship with your friend Jackson! He is our friend's son and goes to the same daycare.  So you see him everyday and sometimes see him at the beach for surf dates.  Other than your over protective attitude about your own stuff, you play with him pretty well.  When you don't see him, you ask to go over and say hi to him.  Today we got to go over and you guys played for awhile.  Jackson came over and gave me kisses after he pretended to saw on me. He went back over to you and you said, "Yes, Jackson you can give me a kiss."  Later you had a shi-shi accident and were sitting on the toilet. He ran in and gave you the biggest hug on the toilet - it was so cute! 


















Lately your babies have become your new friends at daycare - Kamahao and Malia.  You feed Kama kau kau in the shower, wash him up, diaper and dress him.  Last night you even breastfed him in the tub as we had been to the great diaper change and I'm pretty sure you observed some of the other babies breastfeeding.   "I think he needs the other side."  "Come on dude just drink the mama's milk..." You had so many great comments! So funny!!   Oh, we're not sure where the 'dude' came from - but the other day you said to me, "hey dude."  I didn't think too much of it and then you said, "Hey I just called you dude... hahaha."  We rolled laughing. 

 Autumn we love you so much and you bring so much joy to our lives!

Love, Mommy and Daddy

Easter 2012

For the first time in many years we braved the early morning and made it to the sunrise service.  He was good - hundred's of Christians circled around on a ball field near old airport worshiping our Lord and Savior for the resurrection of our King.  Autumn woke up slowly and cuddled with her new bunny.  During worship she put the blanket up over her and rested for a few minutes.  The Christian Hula was fun - I never tire of it.  Autumn sat with the other kids on my lap for the keiki message and we heard a message about taking the gospel into the world.  All in all, worth the very early wake up time!

Next we headed to breakfast - sadly McDonalds egg mcmuffin sounded all too delicious!    It worked out perfect though because our friends had chosen the same destination and we got to sit and chat for breakfast!  Next it was a toss up - head home for rest or use the surf board we had packed just in case.  Then I checked my phone and my surf friend said they were out and the waves were good.  So to Limons we went for a mama surf session while the kids and daddy's played on shore.


 I didn't catch anything, but it was a good learning session.  We then headed home, opened fun gifts from grandparents and Amazon (I didn't think the stuff I had ordered would arrive in time, so I was very excited)  Autumn got her first Bible, finger paints, a big ball, an outfit, kite, puzzle, and sand toys!  Made her day!
We tried to interject a lot of we celebrate Easter to celebrate Jesus saving us as well!!  We then got to Skype with Aaron's side of the family, finger paint and play. I assumed it would be another nap free day, as the day before she played hard on the beach for 2 1/2 hours and didn't take one.  But 15 minutes before we were to head to a friend's, she fell asleep on the couch watching George.  We canceled friends and let her sleep for awhile, as we still had communion dinner at our Church.  We packed up the Challah Bread and headed out to church.

Our pastor is passionate about having communion in a different fashion than pass the juice at the end of a sermon.  He believes that communion is a community event taken together over a meal.  We had our first one on Easter.  It was a lovely potluck, time to share about our lives and Christ's power to release us from our bondage to sin.  It was very powerful.  I look forward to more of them when we return to the Big Island next year.

Side notes: I acutely realized how much my focus on Autumn affects my ability to focus on Christ during events like these.  Then in life, there is not excuse - I have time to spend with God and I make other choices.... I had planned to read John before Easter and only made it to Chapter 5, I desire to keep a prayer journal and be more faith in my prayers and am struggling to be consistent...  Definitely need Christ's help to overcome my life long struggle to carve out time and be more disciplined.

Easter was good! God is so Good to us!!!  So thankful that He rose, that I live with Hope!!!!!

Parenting

There are many many things I love about being a mommy!  Hugs, kisses, caring for her needs - meals, teaching, baths...  and of course playtime.  I knew there would be one part of parenting that would not be easy or fun - and it is not - discipline.   The days that go by without thinking about it much are great!  The days like yesterday that feel like you are a disciplinarian all day long are exhausting.  Today I read more of Boundaries with Kids by Cloud & Townsend.  It is a Christian book that my Maui mom suggested.  The biggest take home at this point is that at this age - my job is to set appropriate boundaries and her job is to test them to the full extent to figure out what reality is.  Children that lack good boundaries struggle a lot in life - so far the book is really good Christian parenting theory and motivation to stand firm on the boundaries - you only have to last one more time than your child.  Some children test and push harder than others - but it is reassuring to hear over and over that it is so worth the exhaustion.  All this said, I still have a lot to work on in the area of patience and kind firmness and other stuff too - but I after yesterday, I needed the reassurance that she will by far benefit from our expectations being consistent and firm.

12 Weeks

We were all very excited to get to see you yesterday baby! We've decided to do our prenatal care here on the Big Island in Waimea, so we made a day of it. First we stopped at Beach 69 for lunch, a swim and sand castle building. We all had so much fun! Your sister enjoyed floating and swimming around in her tube. We can't wait to introduce you to our family beach days!

We then headed up to the Women's Center and checked in. Autumn has a cold, so her and daddy stayed in the car until they called us into office and then they came in. The Nurse Mid-Wife was very nice and asked us all sorts of questions about our family and giving us information about having a healthy pregnancy. Then the best part - we got to see you! Six weeks ago when I got to take a peep at you, you were a heart beat! Yesterday we saw you, you loaded your legs and took huge spring jumping practice a couple of times! So fun! You only measured 2 days older than we thought, so they will leave your due date as October 9th. We prepped Autumn through out the week, letting her know that we were going to get to see you and hear your heartbeat. She's been asking questions and telling me things like - "you need to change the babies diaper, the baby is laughing (after she gave you goobers through my tummy), will we get to hold the baby tomorrow? will we bring the baby home? the baby is a girl, the baby is a boy" After seeing you, we got to hear your heartbeat. The Mid-Wife guessed you are a boy based on the speed of the heart rate. We will have to wait! I'm leaving it up to your daddy to decide if we will try to find out if you are a little boy or a little girl at our diagnostic ultrasound or at your birth. He has a few more weeks to ponder (-:

We love you baby!!! Can't wait to meet you!!!

Love,
Mommy

More practice

A friend of mine had her sisters in town for spring break and thought it would be a fun gift for their mom to get some photos taken. I definitely have some more practicing to do to feel more comfortable orchestrating posing for more than 1 person. I'm thankful that the senior photo shoot was first, as it was much easier and comfortable. I also feel like getting fill light when there are more people is harder with an on camera flash, thank goodness for photoshop to save the day on a few of the photos that were way to dark. However, I'm afraid that these pictures will be quite pixelated at larger sizes. I will have to go read some more articles (-:
All in all - it was still a sucessful shoot and I hope they are happy with the ones I got!

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Two and a half

Autumn, a few days ago you turned two and a half. This year is absolutely flying by! September seems like a short month or 2 ago, but now we are half way to the next September. Although the physical changes have slowed, you continue to amaze us with your growing thoughts and independence.

Activities: The last few months have been fairly slow. We did start going to our new church, Kona Bible Church in February. You enjoy nursery with baby Calvin. We've taken a few walks on Wailua with Bekah and Calvin, spent a couple of weekend evenings at Pine Trees with friends, discovered a new to us beach Mahaiula's with some other friends and went to the Cherry and Avocado festivals. We've done quite a bit of relaxing and resting as well.

Interests: You've really started to show an interest in helping in the kitchen and with the laundry. You are able to help with simple things and even put your toast in the toaster oven and get it started. You help me knead bread, mix cookies, spin lettuce and anything else that isn't dangerous. You help sort laundry, put it in the washer and dryer and even try to help with folding and putting away. You are able to fold a wash cloth quite nicely.
You still love your babies and enjoy changing, feeding and caring for them. You have a constant dialog going with them or the little people as you play. You also enjoy active ball play, trying to hula dance, coloring and puzzles. You've gotten quite good at the puzzles you currently do and now goof around purposely doing them wrong and then asking, "am I being funny." You do silly things with the pieces, hide them in silly places and giggle up a storm. You did to your 12 piece bordered jigsaw on your own the other day and got a good start on the 24 piece butterfly puzzle before asking for help.
You enjoy the beach, but have been spending more time with the digging toys on the beach than in the water lately. This morning at the Keiki ponds you did float around in your tube and try to kick and scoop to propel yourself around. One day we took you out on the surfboard to ride little waves in, but you've had no interest since then. I can't wait until you can wear a mask and enjoy seeing what is under there, can't be too long until you are ready.
Lately your drama at home with us revolves around your room being a hotel. You have us lay down, get up, clean up, feed us, picnic with us - but we are at your hotel. Sometimes the hotel is in Thailand, sometimes Colorado and sometimes - it is just a hotel. You will go out to the shopping center, go to work at the Pregnancy Center and go to school while we rest at the hotel.
The last few weeks you get so excited when the trash truck arrives! You shout and ask to get to a place you can watch. Many times it is as we are walking down to the car and you stare in amazement. You have informed me several times that "when I get older I will drive a trash truck." (-:

Conversations: The complexity and depth of your conversations grows every week. You ask good questions and make fun inferences. This morning as we walked down the stairs you said, "my legs feel like they are going to break, I need to do my push ups tonight." You say fun and funny things all the time! Yesterday you saw balloons on cars and asked who's birthday it was. I tried to explain that it is just the car people trying to sell cars, but we saw more and you informed that they were for someones birthday.

Memory: I think your memory is better than mine of late. If I want to remember someone I met's name, I'd be better off telling you! We met some of Daddy's college friends month ago and about a week after that I was talking about them and you said "you mean Kristen and Paul?" I'd heard their names many more times and couldn't remember. You know who goes with who and if you see one of them without the other, you always ask where "___" is? You remember things we did ages ago, ask about friends we haven't seen in a while and remember when we offer to take you to the park, pool or beach.

Big Sister! You found out on Valentines that you are going to be a big sister! You very much understand that there is a baby in mommy's belly and even ask to give the baby goobers in the mornings on occasion (though my belly of course). The day you found out we talked about how you can help me by bringing the baby their binki (pacifier) and so you talk about that as well. You also brought a few treasured toys out of your room and informed us that those ones would not be for the baby. (-: We can't wait to see you grow into a loving and tender sister! The other night you guessed that you are having a baby brother - we shall find out!!!

Autumn, so are so in love with you! You are such a precious girl with big dreams and potential! God has so much in store for you - we are having so much fun watching you grow and develop into a wonderful little person!!!

Big hugs and kisses,
Mommy and Daddy

Grumpy Mama )-:

Grumpy mama days are tough, they're days I’m not very proud of. I feel like I’m raising my voice all day. A few poor decisions or ears that are not listening very well lead to me getting frustrated. Dollies go in the closet and time outs are had. Unfortunately for both of us, our personalities clash. The frustration doesn’t help Autumn be a better listener or more obedient – it leads her to try everything in the house that she knows she is not allowed to do – pull on the blinds, stand on the surf boards, throw things… sigh. Then grumpy mama gets grumpier. I wonder "am I too harsh? Is the impulse control of a 2 year old good enough that I should expect her to follow the rules she knows?" Likely it is a bit of both, I should have these expectations of her - but should be slower to anger myself. She was put to an early nap, after some prayers and a nap myself - maybe we will wake up kinder people.

Different Pregnancy...

I'll be 10 weeks on Tuesday and I am quite ready to be done with this first trimester. With Autumn, I remember being exhausted, even taking short naps in the car before meetings because I couldn't possibly keep my eyes open. However, I never had anything that even closely resembled morning sickness. This new baby is a different ball of wax. I'm a 2 to 5 out of 10 nauseated all day long. I still feel like I have no room to complain, as many women puke through the a lot of their pregnancy. It isn't like that, I never feel as though I may actually puke, I'm just super uncomfortable. It is worse between 5-8 at night and nothing seems to help - lemon water, crystallized ginger, snacking... well, actually engaging conversation or activity seems to help as my brain forgets my body feels nauseous. Last night was the worst yet and I went to bed at 6pm and slept until morning except to do Autumn's night time routine of puzzles, prayers and songs at 8. All things in life are temporary, so I know this will pass and that is encouraging. I'm very thankful that I have a husband that has stepped up and helped with what I don't feel up to, very glad it doesn't interrupt work, happy it doesn't greatly interfere with my appetite and glad that it seems that this is otherwise a healthy pregnancy. I'll jump on the bandwagon that says morning sickness means good strong pregnancy hormones. (-: (although I would take a pregnancy like Autumn's with none of this in a heart beat too). I am excited that in 2 weeks we'll have our first OB appointment and get to hear the heart beat together as a family!

Mouths of Babes -

On the way home tonight I was explaining to Autumn difference between saying last night and a while ago. When I finished the explanation by saying, "that is when you say a while ago." Autumn said, "yeah, that's what coyboys say!"

Tonight she had gotten her pencils because I needed one to write a list. She beboped around and climbed up on the back of the couch and said, "I'm an ostrich." I asked what ostriches do and she replied, "I don't know."

Then she asked if I was listing. I said yes I'm making a list for dinner for tomorrow. She then insisted she make her own "text list." (-:

7 weeks

Written 2/20

Tomorrow I will be 7 weeks pregnant with this new little one! Today I finally got into my primary care office to get an official pregnancy test and have the GYN check to make sure everything looks good. She even showed me my cervix in a mirror and had me feel where my uterus was - pretty awesome! She said it everything looks great, gave me forms for blood work and the diagnostic US. She sends the referral to the OB/GYN's in Waimea so I can schedule my first appointment with them. What a contrast from my first pre--natal Dr. appointment for Autumn. Somehow again I ended up at the community health center, but this time the nurse was so so so nice and friendly. The Dr. was also super nice as well as thorough and showed/ let me feel everything too. A nice contrast to Maui 3 years ago! I've heard nothing but great things about the Women's Center in Waimea - so I'm sure I'll be happy with their care as well.

Also on Thursday because I wasn't sure when we'd actually get to see the OB. I had my friend at the pregnancy center (who happens to be a Dr.) do a quick ultrasound to see the heart beat. Crazy that at 6 weeks 2 days this wonderful baby has a heart beat. She said everything looked like it should and that the baby was 2 millimeters big. Two millimeters with a heartbeat! God's handiwork is so astonishing! We are so excited to watch this sweet baby be knit into a beautiful child!!!

Here's our wee wee wee peanut!


Sharing the news: On valentines morning we told Autumn she was going to be a big sister because there is a baby in my tummy. It took her most of the day to seem to grasp the reality, but after explaining that she could be a helper after the baby is born by getting he/she a binky - she seems to really get that a real baby is coming. After work we Skyped with family that was still awake and tried to have Autumn tell them - she did pretty good! Since then we've been slowly leaking the news to friends and family. The only person Autumn clearly told was Rebekah - as she asked what we did for valentines and Autumn responded "There's a baby in the belly." Super cute!

Oh Baby!!!!

This is almost 4 weeks delayed - we've been telling family and friends here and there and are ready to share with the blogger world. Will likely be another few weeks before any facebook announcements are made.
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Hi Baby! This morning your dad and I found out that we are pregnant with you! Super exciting news! We've been anticipating your arrival in my tummy for a few months and are overwhelmed with joy knowing you are in there!

In addition to being super exciting, we are realistically nervous too. We will trust God to take care of you and know his plans are greater than our own if something may go wrong.

Right now you are the size of a sesame seed. In the next 2-3 weeks we will be able to see your heart beat for the first time! I've already made all the phone calls to figure out our first Dr. visit so we can see your little heart and make sure everything looks okay for us. Welcome to pregnancy baby - you and me will be getting to know each other in a very special way for the next 9 months!

As of right now, only your dad and I know you are part of our family. Your sister Autumn told me I was pregnant a few days ago, but she doesn't actually know she is going to be a big sister yet! We will carefully think through when we want to tell all of your grandparents, aunts and uncles and cousins and then when we tell the rest of our friends! They will all be excited to know you are growing and will make your entrance sometime early in October.

First Portriat Session!

Here are the photos!

I'm just looking to practice and my friend's daughter's birthday was a great opportunity to offer a free beach photo session! We had so much fun and I'm quite happy with the results!

Haiti Blog

I've put stuff up from this blog in the past. This post is especially visually powerful. Praise God for those serving in the 3rd world to rescue children from death and also teach them about God's love.

http://brittanyinhaiti.blogspot.com/2012/02/what-is-kwashiorkor-malnutrition.html

Also scroll down to the January 21st post for encouragement! So cool how proper nutrition and care makes such a drastic difference in a matter of months.

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Dolphins

On Sunday we met some of Aaron's college friends at Kamakahonu beach for some fun. Everyone else was getting ready for a snorkel when we spotted a pod of spinner dolphins in the bay. All the SUPs and kayaks were rented except for a single kayak - so Autumn and I hoped on in and took off. At first I thought the dolphins had gone, but their were still a bunch of kayaks and SUPs sitting around out further. We kept paddling and then we spotted the dorsal fins coming right at us. Blowholes grunting, tails flapping, jumping... they just made circle after circle around all the people. What a show! Autumn saw them and had such a ball. They stuck around so long that she finally got bored and decided she needed to be the one paddling! We head back to the beach with her holding onto the middle of the paddle 'helping' me. I was certainly a moment imprinted in my mind for ever! Autumn has been with us when we see them from the shore, but I don't think she has ever actually seen them. So this was fun for her to really experience them!

After some beach play we all headed back out on SUP boards, me with Autumn sitting on the front of my board. Amazingly the dolphins were still hanging out, and this time closer to we didn't have to paddle very far. Again they came feet from our board and jumped all around us. Autumn would exclaim "dolphins jump" and one would come flying out of the water less than 20 feet away! Crazy crazy fun!!!

What a treasure - I definitely had the "I love this place, I never want to leave" thoughts while we were out there! God is so great and we get to experience his creation in such a beautiful way all the time!

First Job!

I had the pleasure of getting to shoot a friends vacation rental this evening! I learned so much, being my first time shooting indoors without the ease of good natural lighting. I used tricks similar to these to help me get enough light into dark places. I still struggled and didn't get any photos I really liked of the living room because of the harsh lighting coming in the windows. I'm going to need to go shoot a few more pictures in them morning when the light is pointed the other direction. Here are some previews.

Dinking with online editing software

pixlr.com

I had no idea that free online photo editing was available - it does many of the things I do in Photoshop and has some fun automatic edits and retro things!

3 Foot and Glassy

Technically it was more like 2 foot and windy - but it was such a nice evening. Our friends that live in our building have invited us out to their surf spot multiple times and it just hasn't worked out for us to join. This weekend we committed and had such a nice time. It is a whole group of friends that has children and surfs together at Pine Trees. We all brought potluck food and took turns with our spouses surfing. The waves were smallish and I wasn't sure that I wanted to paddle out. Then my friend talked about taking the kids out. We had Autumn's life jacket, but hadn't taken her out before so I wasn't sure about it, but wanted to try! My friend showed me how to paddle with her on the front of the board and took her on her first wave. No standing is involved, so it is a bit more like boogie boarding on a surf board, but it is a fun ride! Autumn crawled over to my board and we rode a few more. Daddy headed out, I think mostly because he was nervous - but it turned into a really fun family surf session! After a few more waves Autumn asked to surf with Aaron and so we switched boards and she rode with him. We even paddled together and they rode next to me while I popped up and rode one in. It was so much fun and she just loved it! Even the water in the face as we'd paddle back out didn't bother her. She's a charger! We have no photographic evidence of the surf session or the whales on the horizon as the sunset! It was such a fun evening with new friends, fun waves, and whales - definitely makes us want to keep going back for more!

Kamakana Playground

Pursuit of fine photos...

I have a little dream to be able to run a side business of taking affordable professional family photos at the beach. I got my first DSLR camera today, which is the same as my mom's, so I put it together and headed to the park! I'm hoping to study and practice and see nice improvement in my photo's over the next year! Here's day 1!

Autumn 2 years 4 months

Autumn, instead of a detailed monthly report of your development I think I'm going to switch to intermittent "A day in the life of Autumn" written/photo journalism reports!

Today we had so much fun. You ran into our room at about 7, crawled up in our bed, snuggled for about 2 minutes before you started asking questions like. "Mom and dad, did the sun come up?" Daddy final crawled out with you when you requested cereal. Once you got to the living room, you became much more interested in doing puzzles than eating. I got up and went to change you and asked if you would go sit on the potty. You didn't want to, so I had Elmo doll go and try. You decided to as well and made a little pee pee in the potty. We then ate breakfast and said good bye to daddy. We had a girls day out planned! As we walked out the door you shouted, "bye daddy" and gave him a skype hug (which he couldn't see)! On our way to Waikoloa the sky was so clear we could see all the mountains. They are volcanos - which you adorably call 'lavacanos.' We talked about them and when I said, "That is Hualalai." You asked, "We live on that lavacano, right?" "Yes, we do." Lately you've been trying to figure out where we live. We talk about Kona, the Coffee Villas, and the volcano mountain we live on and our island. It is pretty complex stuff for a two year old. We started talking about family and you asked if they live on their island. It is good logic - if we live on an island - they must too! I tried to explain that they live on a continent, but it is just a bit too complex for the time being. You do recognize the Big Island on a map of Hawaii and always ask us, "Is that our island?"

We got to the Hilton public parking and walked in. You wanted to see the dolphins first so we walked that way. You spotted pink flamingos that I didn't see and haven't noticed before. After checking them out you wanted to touch all the statues of animals and people. It was a theme for the morning! We got to the dolphins and they were doing programs where people got to be right down with them. Surprisingly you had no interest in watching or being the one down there right next to them. We walked over to the other holding ponds and watched the mamma and baby for a bit. That didn't last too long before you wanted to ride the train. They have a light rail and boats for guest to use to get around the property. The plan was to right the train out and take a boat back - but the boats we're going to start running until after we left. We walked out to the grass and played for a while on a cabana before you decided you needed a snack. We changed your diaper in a gazebo before hoping on the train back to the lobby. We rode the elevator one last time before heading to the car and then to Arby's for lunch. We practiced saying Arby's a few times as you kept calling it Ardy's. (-: We shared a roast beef sandwich, curly fries and water before we went out looking at flowers and coy fish. We even found a little train to play with. We then went in the hat store to look around. You busted through the door and yelled, "Are there hats in here?" Everyone laughed and commented on how cute you were. I thought you would fall asleep as soon as we got on the highway, but you were still awake as we approach Kukio, so we drove to Kukio Beach to see if there were turtles to look at.

It was a great stop, you loved walking along the sand beach looking for shells, there were plenty of turtles and I got to see a whale splashing on the horizon. We even got to sit and watch a turtle climb down the beach out to sea while another one climbed up to take a rest.
On our way back to the car Kait called and you played nicely 'driving,' honking and crawling around in the car while I caught up. We hit the road and you were out in like 2 minutes! You slept for the drive home and then woke up as soon as I took you out of the car. Thought you might transfer, but no luck. We came in and you cuddled for like 3 minutes before looking up and me and saying, "can we go play." We played for a bit after getting cleaned up. You love playing with your little people, you even had them all sat up in chairs around the play table when we went to play. You move them around, have them talk to each other and take care of each other.

We had such a fun day! Love you baby girl!